What if I can't get over my fears and doubts? What if I fail at this? What if my family is right? What if I'm just a face in the crowd cheering others on as they win and advance?
Today, several people from my office went to Martha's Vineyard as winners of a contest. Last month, I won the contest. I know I have it in me to win right? I did it once. In my head I was going to win the vineyard too, but I didn't. Didn't fight, didn't try hard enough. Gave up too soon . It is like my drive disappeared, like I was just a flash in the pan. I hated how I felt last night, knowing I was missing out. Because if there is one thing worse than never winning;, it is winning the first time and failing the next.
There has to be a way to succeed and rise above my doubt and be the winner that lives in my heart. Failure isn't an option, therefore fear must be conquered.
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